Why?

It's 4 am now...
I'm suppose to be asleep like everyone else, but why am I still blogging at such hours??

Lately there's so much of a uni's leng zai leng lui group created in Facebook, where people upload the the photos of the students of a particular university..

UTAR also created such group also.titled UTAR帅哥美女

and my friends all keep uploading some other friend's photo..
I also follow la..haha..uploaded a few photos of my friend..and then kena goreng from them..wkaka

Mana tau, end up my photo kena upload pulak in UTAR帅哥美女 thanks to Bernice who 'bai ngo xiong toi'
haha..she ask me to send her my photo then she help me upload..

I don't want to send, end up she go 'curi' from my pictures uploaded in FB.. =.="

then i kenakan my friend again where they come up with another group of UTAR celebrity look alike...haha..

Finished another assignment today...few more to go until my finals...
I have been having nightmares lately..
Not to say scary as in horrors nightmares..
But scary as it is about life and death..
I've been having weird dreams for the past few nights..

and the dream I dreamt this noon really did disturbed me in a way and was kinda emo..
and the dream actually made me realize that,
I still care a lot for him.. and he is still important to me..
I am confused...
but then even as a friend, you are still an important friend of mine that I can't afford to lose..
a friend who have a place in my heart, no matter what... 你已经在我心中占领了某个位子... 你已经把我的心给占据了。。。一个刻骨铭心的座位。。。只有你才能对号入座。

I just found out something which I'm actually having dilemma of..
something which i wanted to know and don't hope to know as well..
not to say I am selfish or what, what I never knew that I would feel this way after knowing the truth..
It somehow.... hurts....
why does it still hurts?
why? why do I still feel the pain? Why do I still care?

song for the this post is by Nicky Lee...想太多


and also another song...which always best decribe my love life...


v(^_^)v
~luv & hugs~muakss
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Daddy

at my most depressed moments,

you are always there for me..

how i wish if you're still here with me,

to lend me your shoulder to lean on and to cry on when im depresed..

i miss you so muchh...

pls bless me and guide me..

help me pass through these tough tasks that i need to go through for the coming weeks..

I came across this video in FB...and I go search in youtube to get the embed code to paste it here...

It is a very meaningful video, where i actually watched till tears filled my eyes, as I do agree with what the person said in the Video...



In FB, the person who uploaded this video with the title, Dare to Fail, Success Will Come..do enjoy..

v(^_^)v
~luv & hugs~muakss
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Hell weeks

It's been so so so tiring...my BP is getting lower and lower, dark circle getting darker and darker...sigh...and i start to feel dizzy all around again..sad...

It's week 9 now.. assignment deadline on this Fri and also CRM midterm on this WEd..i need to rush the assignment by this Wed to consult our lecturer.

next week, week 10, CRM presentation.. then week 11 Comm theories Assignment deadline.. week 12, CRM report deadline and Media Planning deadline..WEek 13 presentation,and BRand Management deadline plus presentation..then finals..

OMG>..i am feelling so so so so so tired...i am so scared that i just can't be strong enough to go through all this...sigh..

v(^_^)v
~luv & hugs~muakss
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如果我变成回忆

如果我变成回忆。。。
is a very meaningful song...and a nice song indeed...
i was looking at the lyrics, and i thought of you.
another had passed..
and i dreamt of you the other night..
tho it was a nightmare, but then im glad that you were there to protect me.. even it's just a dream
I missed you...

I love this song a lot..I felt that its very meaningful..
我们不会知道下一刻会发生什么事
我们不会知道我们的快乐几时会结束的。。
如果我们突然间变成了回忆，可是我们还有很多话还来不及讲，很多事都还没有做的话。。。那就太迟
要珍惜我们所拥有的一切。。

here..i dedicate this song to you..ru guo wo bian cheng hui yi..


and here's the lyrics...enjoy..

累了 照慣例努力清醒著 也照慣例想妳了
Lei le Zhao guan li nu li qing xing zhe Ye zhao guan li xiang ni le
When I'm tired I keep trying hard to stay awake as usual I keep thinking of you as usual too
好怕一放心睡了 心跳在夢中不聽話的 就停止了
Hao pa yi fang xin shui le Xin tiao zai meng zhong bu ting hua de Jiu ting zhi le
I'm really scared that when my mind is at rest and I'm asleep In my dreams my heartbeat won't listen to me And just stop

聽著 呼吸像浪潮拍動著 越美麗越讓我忐忑
Ting zhe Hu xi xiang lang chao pai dong zhe Yue mei li yue rang wo tan te
Listen; The sound of breathing like waves splashing The more beautiful it gets, the more I feel uneasy
我還能珍惜什麼 如果我連自己的脈搏 都難掌握
Wo hai neng zhen xi shen me Ru guo wo lian zi ji de mai bo Dou nan zhang wo
What can I still cherish If I can barely control my own pulse?

如果我變成回憶 退出了這場生命
Ru guo wo bian cheng hui yi Tui chu le zhe chang sheng ming
If I became a memory - withdrew from this life
留下妳錯愕哭泣 我冰冷身體 擁抱不了妳
Liu xia ni cuo e ku qi Wo bing leng shen ti Yong bao bu liao ni
Leaving you startled and weeping My ice-cold body No longer able to embrace you
想到我讓深愛的妳 人海孤獨旅行
Xiang dao wo rang shen ai de ni Ren hai gu du lv xing
Thinking that I'll leave you, the one I love To travel among the sea of people alone
我會恨自己 如此狠心
Wo hui hen zi ji Ru ci hen xin
I will hate myself For being so heartless

如果我變成回憶 終於沒那麼幸運
Ru guo wo bian cheng hui yi Zhong yu mei na me xing yun
If I became a memory - finally not so lucky
沒機會白著頭髮 蹣跚牽著妳 看晚霞落盡
Mei ji hui bai zhe tou fa Pan shan qian zhe ni Kan wan xia luo jin
No chance Of us tottering while holding your hand Hair grown white Watching the sunset
漫長時光 總有一天 妳會傷心痊癒
Man chang shi guang Zong you yi tian Ni hui shang xin quan yu
In this very long period of time There'll be a day When your broken heart will heal
若有人可以 讓他陪妳 我不怪妳
Ruo you ren ke yi Rang ta pei ni Wo bu guai ni
If someone can [heal your wound] Let him stay accompany you I won't blame you

快樂 什麼時候會結束呢 哪一刻是最後一刻
Kuai le Shen me shi hou hui jie su ne Na yi ke shi zui hou yi ke
Happiness When will it end? When is the very end?
想把妳緊緊抱著 可知妳是我生命中的 最捨不得
Xiang ba ni jing jing bao zhe Ke zhi ni shi wo sheng ming zhong de Zui she bu de
I really want to embrace you tightly Know that you're the one in my life I can't bear to leave the most

如果我變成回憶 退出了這場生命
Ru guo wo bian cheng hui yi Tui chu le zhe chang sheng ming
If I became a memory - withdrew from this life
留下妳錯愕哭泣 我冰冷身體 擁抱不了妳
Liu xia ni cuo e ku qi Wo bing leng shen ti Yong bao bu liao ni
Leaving you startled and weeping, my ice-cold body no longer able to embrace you
想到我讓深愛的妳 人海孤獨旅行
Xiang dao wo rang shen ai de ni Ren hai gu du lv xing
Thinking that I'll leave you, the one I love To travel among the sea of people alone
我會恨自己 如此狠心
Wo hui hen zi ji Ru ci hen xin
I will hate myself For being so heartless

如果我變成回憶 終於沒那麼幸運
Ru guo wo bian cheng hui yi Zhong yu mei na me xing yun
If I became a memory - finally not so lucky
沒機會白著頭髮 蹣跚牽著妳 看晚霞落盡
Mei ji hui bai zhe tou fa Pan shan qian zhe ni Kan wan xia luo jin
No chance to Tottering while holding your hand Hair grown white Watching the sunset
漫長時光 總有一天 妳會傷心痊癒
Man chang shi guang Zong you yi tian Ni hui shang xin quan yu
In this very long period of time There'll be a day When your broken heart will heal
若有人可以 讓他陪妳 我不怪妳
Ruo you ren ke yi Rang ta pei ni Wo bu guai ni
If someone can [heal your wound], let him stay accompany you, I won't blame you

如果我變成回憶 最怕我太不爭氣
Ru guo wo bian cheng hui yi Zui pa wo tai be zheng qi
If I became a memory - I'm most afraid that I'll let myself down
頑固地賴在空氣 霸佔妳心裡 每一吋縫隙
Wan gu de lai zai kong qi Ba zhan ni xin li Mei yi cun feng xi
Stubbornly lingering in the air Dominating your heart Every part of it
連累依然愛我的妳 痛苦承受失去
Lian lei yi ran ai wo de ni Tong ku cheng shou shi qu
Making the you that still loves me, suffer painfully for this loss
這樣不公平 請妳盡力 把我忘記
Zhe yang bu gong ping Qing ni jin li Ba wo wang ji
This isn't fair Please try your best To forget me

v(^_^)v
~luv & hugs~muakss
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Blog neglected...

It's been more than a month now since I last updated my blog here.

Things are getting thougher and thougher now... and time are now getting lesser and lesser..

Handed in 2 assignments last week, but that's just the first part of it..

Having mid term this Sat, and a presentation next week, which I have not yet prepared for any of it. Sigh..

I'm getting lazier and lazier now. I have been so busy and yet lazy to even update my blog here.

Went back for a week hols during CNY, but it doesn't feel like CNY for me. Went for teh Armenian St. Herritage thingy..and took some pics there..hehe

but before that, I would like to show this pic...I personally like this pic a lot..heheh

here's the pic taken at the procession













I just randomly choose a few pics only...heheh....for more pics, do visit my page at Facebook

Went back to PG again last week to witness the Procession that is being held only 12 years once. Guess I won't be going back to PG so soon anymore..

Came back to Kampar on Monday( I should have come back on Tues instead!!) and had some nice food with Mabel before we start to suffer or lives here.

Went to Shinjuku on Monday with Mabel.. and here are the pics of the food that i've taken

I personally love this potato salad alot.. but it's a lil bit expensive la.. RM 7.90 for this..

This Tofu also taste good. You have to try it once it is served... served while it is hot..haha.. the outer layer of the tofu is first fried before it is served with the gravy..therefore it is still crunchy and nice..


This is my portion of mee, Kyusyu or Kyushu Ramen I don't remember...it's actually a set with drink and dessert, only cost RM 14.90 and the portion is very big..


k la...it took me days to upload this blog just to upload the photos..wakkaka...enjoy your day everyone, and wish me luck in tomorrow's exam k?hehahah
v(^_^)v
~luv & hugs~muakss
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And it strikes AGAIN

26/01/10 (Tuesday), 2nd week of new sem, and it strikes again. When can I finally get rid of it?It's been 7 years now... I'm getting sicked and tired of it...and it's so troublesome.

Everything was fine the whole day..Joked and laughed as before.. and out of a sudden, I felt it is hard for me to breathe, and I starts to get numb and dizzy

and, it strikes again... same old case... and I was being sent to the Hosp AGAIN...
The doc in there still recognise me... and it's a new A&E ward. I'm like the regular 'customer' there... I meant patient la...was admitted twice last year... but hyperventilate strikes 3 times in that year..It was only my first year...

and now, week 2 of my second year, it strikes again... I dare not imagine, How it gonna be in the future? How if it suddenly strike during my working life?
I am indeed very scared.. How does this suddenlt happen to me?

Well, will need to stop now.. Did a blood test just now..and my hand is still pain..

v(^_^)v
~luv & hugs~muakss
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y2s1

It's been quite sometime since i last updated...Sorry for that...Don't have a connection back in my hometown, and life back here in Uni is not that good after all...
It's just the 3rd day and I don't feel good about it...

Time flies...
It's already been a year ever since i came to pursue my study here in UTAR Kampar
I'm now a Year 2 student d..
but I don't feel proud at all..who wanna get old and leave schooling life right?

This sem is really tough...
I'm now kind of like..having.. 'culture' shock..culture shouldn't be the right term but i just don't know which word best describe..
Everything is like happening so fast and rush..
I'm starting to feel the hectic life..

It's just the 3rd day of my new sem..
but I already felt that I can hardly breathe...
I'm like having this trauma or something...
I'm starting to feel the stress in me..
I'm starting to feel the burden on me..
I'm so scared..very very scared..

I can feel that i acted differently lately...
I became very nervous..
Even when I talk to my frind,
I can get excited suddenly...
.I began to talk very fast...
Faster than I used to be..

What is wrong with me?
Can I stay strong till the end of the sem?
Can hyperventilation don't come and visit me this sem?
I doubt so...

v(^_^)v
~luv & hugs~muakss
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