I am currently craving for this song called 红豆 by Faye Wong.
Well, it is a very old song.. but then it is just so nice to hear.

My moods are still unstable.
SOmetimes i think what can I do to make myself better?
Go punch the wall?my bones on my right hand are already kind of crushed as i used to do that when I was young.
I still remember one of the most stupid things I've ever done, which is to cut my hand.
but frankly speaking, I do feel better.
I used to think, why do these peoples hurt themselves?
I was once curious and I tried.
THe most ever stupid thing that I have ever done, but I end up understand that it somehow brings you a kind of relieve..
You might think that I am abnormal, but it somehow made me feel relieve, which I do not know why.
Well, I am not trying to suicide, don't worry.
It's just a way of relieving I suppose?haha
I used to promised a person that I will never do that anymore, as now, my hands are full of vains, it somehow happens after I started cutting myself often.
Am I nuts?for doing such a thing?
Those were the days
I really felt so lost out of a sudden.
But I just couldn't show it out to them.
I just hope I can be as happy as I am when Im out with my friends and cried myself to sleep or release when I am alone in my room.

Anyhow, enjoy the song below..and I hope I can find and see Rainbow soon.No more darken days for me.


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~luv & hugs~muakss
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