Wednesday, August 14, 2013

Blessed despite it all

My moods very running out of my control lately
Swings of mood has get from bad to worse
And I admit I was kinda upset and emo for the past week
Or shall i say the last post...
I guess even the blind can see it huh?
Well had a long weekend last week..
Family went down to kl and I decided to go to Kampar since I dont need to work this Sunday
He had 2 days break thus headed baxk to hometown in Taiping..
I really dunno how should I react or shall I be eager to meet him on that day or not since I was so emo over the weak..
Things weren't as bad as I thought...
Just us...
While waiting for his mom to be back for dinner..
We were resting and he hugged me to sleep.
Was resting on his chest till I realized my cheeck was wet..
Then i woke up and realized I fell asleep and tears dropped..
He wasnt awakened by that..
Thank god.. and I guess he never knew about what happened...
Went to Kampar on Friday..
As usual.. stayed at his shop to 'help' him out.. lol...
As long as I didnt disturb him.. guess thats the best help from me towards him.. hehe
It's been a month since long distance..
After this trip and we can only meet again in Oct which is 2 months later..
I'm gonna miss you so badly...
Will you feel the same way too?
I'm sorry bii for always troubling you..
Not that i wanted to control nor to checl on you..
I admit..
I was just..
Not that I dont trust you..just that...
The word CONFIDENT never ever exist in my dictionary..
And I know I just need to learn to feel safe.. I love you bii..

Tuesday, August 6, 2013





 ~luv & hugs~muakss
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