Wednesday, December 30, 2009

Magnum countdown concert

Today and tomorrow will be my off day.. today Julio came to Penang to rehearse and prepare for the 2010 countdown concert at Queensbay.

Waited for him to reach Penang..haha...and had fun chatting with him..though it was only a short while but then still had great times...and met Jojo also...she's so pretty in real...heheh

Me and Jojo

Me and Julio

Me and Ju 2

self-shot at coffee bean while waiting for him..

today went to Queensbay and no where else..haha...thnaks to Mei who teman me the whole day..we then sat at coffee bean minum kopi and makan cheese cake..heheh

I guess i missed out lots of post lately..hehe...let me update about what i did during chrismas.. Was off on that day as well..I meant Xmas eve..ehehe... Went to UPR with Mei, Danuas and Parry...oh yEa...not forgottign alvin also..long time was so long since we last contact..hahaha...

Me and kor

me n sin pei

ALvin, Parry and I

SinMei, SinPei and Tennee

Sin Mei, me and Alvin

~luv & hugs~muakss
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Sunday, December 27, 2009

end of 2009

Time flies.. It's now the end of Year 2009. I've gone through many things this year. Experienced many ups and downs together with my buddies in Kampar and also in Penang.
1. First time leaving my home
2. First time go KL by train with Sin Mei
3. First time go Genting staying there with friends
4. First time cycle to uni
5. Get to know lots of new friends.
6. Get to know whom are my real friends
7. Get to know how horrible and scary a human can be
8. First time celebrating my birthday at mamak stall
9. Experienced working as a waitress
10. There's so much more to say...

The times got upside down during our finals, rushing for assignments, enjoying time with friends and all
So fast, it's now been a year. I've been staying in Kampar for a year now le.

Im getting more and more worried le.. My seniors are now going for internship this coming sem..and soon, it'll be my turn. 2 more years to go and I'm done as a STUDENT. Can I take it as what I'm studying now?


2 days ago, were chatting with a friend. You know who you are. We chatted about a lot of things, and chatted about the histories of us. I'm the one who brought it up.haha.. but anyhow, I need to thank you for giving me the courage to do so. If not because of you, telling me your story, I don't think I would ever dare to talk to you about the topic again.

I have been telling myself since long ago, that I have forgotten about it and have let it down, but then I do doubt that I can do it, or at least I doubt that whether I have successfully let go or not. But after that night, I am very sure that, I have let go. I do not have the burden in me anymore, I meant those things that i do not dare to express I finally did and actually felt relieved. but that doesn't mean that I had forgotten you. I will not and that will be kept in my heart and mind, as a memory. A memory that will never be erased.

I really felt so happy and relieved. and also thanks for giving me the answer that I want to know. Haha.... That's also one of the reason I'm happy le..haha.. after so many years, I finally sure that I had truly let go le..hehe...

It's so nice knowing you and you're right, I am proud to be the one to share your probs..hehe
and about what you told me the other day, jia you ba..hehe..Time will tell, if she's yours, then she is...mayb currently, is just not the right time i guess...ALl the best to you dear friend..

~luv & hugs~muakss
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Wednesday, December 16, 2009

Those days

There are things in life, that you can never get used to it...

I mean, there are lots of things you can get over it, be it relationship,studies, any problems that you encounter.

But there are certain things in life, that you can never get over it, and get used to it.

It's been 3 years, going to 4 now.

I still cannot believe it

I never thought you would leave us just like that

I just could not wake up to face the reality; the cruel reality

I am still lying to myself that you are still here

I am still wishing and hoping that that day didn't happen


My wish will never be granted

Coz I know,

You are no longer here

We cannot spend time with each other how we used to be

Those days where you fed me, and took care of me

Those days where you woke us up early in the morning to bring us go picnic

Those days where you brought me to the middle of the sea and I cried for help

Those days where you taught me how to play guitar

Those days where you played guitar and I sang along

Those days where we make paper cards and fans

Those days where we go hunt for crabs at Queensbay beach with mom

Those days where we went to Bukit Hijau's waterfall, you carried me all the while in the water

Those days where you waited for me everyday at the school's bus stop to pick me up

Those days where you woke up at 5.30 in the morning to accompany me out to the bus stop to wait for bus

Those days where you fetch me for tuition classes

Those days where you nagged me, ask me to study

Those days...

Those were the days..

I Love You...

And I really hope that you will come home..

~luv & hugs~muakss
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Sunday, December 13, 2009



~luv & hugs~muakss
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Thursday, December 3, 2009

Went to have lunch at East Ocean again...My aunt came to find me this noon and bring me there for lunch. Had a great lunch.. I am sure gonna put on weight from today onwards..

Today had a great lunch, this Sat I will be going back to Penang and for sure will have good meals then..hehe... Sure put on a lot of weight when i Come back to Kampar here..

guys, don't be afraid when u see me yea??hehe..I meant after study break, or even sem break...hehe...

here are the pictures of what I have taken for lunch just now.. My aunt ordered a shark fin for me..heheh.. then steam cord fish, then black pepper deer meet...

1. Crabmeat shark fin
2.Steam Cord Fish
3. Black Pepper deer meat
4. 2 white rice
5. chinese tea

well..just forget about the 4, and 5. the 3 items below, plus rice and tea and all cost RM 52..
the Shark Fin cost RM 15, Fish cost RM 22, erm...pai seh..i din know how much the deer meat cost...probablyu around rm10 like that...less than rm15 if not mistaken..

Till then..

~luv & hugs~muakss
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Wednesday, December 2, 2009

song of the day...

song of the day...

i was sleeping this, here in Kampar, I will play some musics when I sleep so that it won't feel so quiet and I won't simply think..

Ok..back to the topic, I was sleeping this morning and suddenly this rhythm and lyrics came to my mind.. I was wondering what song was it. Then when I finally wake up, the first thing I did was search at YouTube..

and I finally found this song. a very nice and old song..The music is nice..the lyrics is meaningful too...

enjoy it...

~luv & hugs~muakss
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就是, ‘原来时间不能冲淡一切’

haha..sorry for the broken chinese..wakaka

last night, was chatting with ShinYee and reminded me about the past..that is when I came up with this phrase..
maybe this might not be a very good phrase, but as most of you know, I am a banana a.k.a eng ed..hehe...therefore, even if it's not very good..I still like it very much..hehe

If I wrote any wrong word at the post above, pls forgive me yea..hehe... I am not very sure if it's correct or not..wakak

~luv & hugs~muakss
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Tuesday, December 1, 2009

Kampar East Ocean

Yesterday dinner, we went to have dinner at the Kampar East Ocean..hehe... it cost us RM 34 for the 3 dishes below.

Their famous tofu

The soup

The Marmite Chicken

after the pictures of the foods, here comes our pics..hehe

don't know what should I post d...sigh...Finals is coming le..all the best ba..hehe

~luv & hugs~muakss
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Saturday, November 28, 2009

nice food

wow...I've been eating lot's of nice food lately..for the whole week I suppose...haah..
Let's see..
MON-went to Ipoh with Sampat gang, had McD for my brunch and er... beansprout chicken for dinner.
love this shop-taken at guardian

TUES- er..had my hokkien mee imported from Penang for lunch, and dinner was at Ipoh's Pasar malam, with Alex, Darren, Jason, and gf-Huey Chyi, sorry dont know how to spell her name...ehhe..then night yam cha
WED- forgot what i had for lunch d...hehe..Dinner at Yau Kee, ate curry chicken bread, is that what you called?hehe..with the 4 of them again, plus Huang Yi Da this time..

hehe..then pasar malam at Kampar..haha..then night yam cha again..this was taken near the ktar flats when we teman ai tein n ying ling walk home..

THURS- didn't have dinner as i was working, pity huh?haha, but the meals ai had for the past few days is enough to make me put on weight..Night yam cha again...
FRI- went to A box with the 4 of them again.. but wasn't in mood, and I know i've been singing real bad this time..haha... Had Pasta for dinner at Alex, and Darren's house.. Jason cooked..and it was nice, but heard that the previous time was better..not too sure coz i only taste it for the first time..haha

my portion..

yea...that was my whole week's schedule?hahah..interesting yea?sigh, I'm so broke this week..spent a lot...hahah... and ate over quota d...need to go for diet le..hehe

~luv & hugs~muakss
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Thursday, November 26, 2009

I am currently craving for this song called 红豆 by Faye Wong.
Well, it is a very old song.. but then it is just so nice to hear.

My moods are still unstable.
SOmetimes i think what can I do to make myself better?
Go punch the wall?my bones on my right hand are already kind of crushed as i used to do that when I was young.
I still remember one of the most stupid things I've ever done, which is to cut my hand.
but frankly speaking, I do feel better.
I used to think, why do these peoples hurt themselves?
I was once curious and I tried.
THe most ever stupid thing that I have ever done, but I end up understand that it somehow brings you a kind of relieve..
You might think that I am abnormal, but it somehow made me feel relieve, which I do not know why.
Well, I am not trying to suicide, don't worry.
It's just a way of relieving I suppose?haha
I used to promised a person that I will never do that anymore, as now, my hands are full of vains, it somehow happens after I started cutting myself often.
Am I nuts?for doing such a thing?
Those were the days
I really felt so lost out of a sudden.
But I just couldn't show it out to them.
I just hope I can be as happy as I am when Im out with my friends and cried myself to sleep or release when I am alone in my room.

Anyhow, enjoy the song below..and I hope I can find and see Rainbow soon.No more darken days for me.

~luv & hugs~muakss
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Another day has gone... and my mood are getting more and more unstable lately..
What has happen to me?
I can be smiling and joking at this minute, and the next minute, my mood will be 180degrees changed...
What had happened? WHy do I keep on having mood swing lately?
I just felt very tired...very veyr tired.
I really do not know why..
That kind of emo feelings that i had experienced last sem came back again. And frankly speaking,
I am very scared.
I don't know what I'm scared of..but I just have this feeling in me..
I still remember last sem, there's these days, that I didn't turn up for class the whole week.
I cried for 3 days continuously for no specific reason.
I just feel very sad and don't feel like talking.
I feel very lost. Lost of directions, do not know what I'm doing and thinking.

~luv & hugs~muakss
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Tuesday, November 24, 2009

Ipoh trip with SIAO n SAMPAT gang

Went back to Penang for the past weekend...was kind of rush this trip...went back on Sat evening, reached Pg at 7pm, then came back to Kampar today at 8am...

Reached Kampar at 11 then went to meet up with Alex, Alvin, Prince, Kuang Sze, Syee Nee and Sze Chin they all at westlake, then depart to Ipoh's Jusco... went to watched 2012 and was good..haha..and I cried so badly...haha..who told me will cry wan ah??hahah

Then after that went to Ipoh Parade...spent over a 100 today...bought 2 clothes, a scarf, and a bag..hehe.... then went to eat MCD and also dinner at Lou Wong's place again...

Had a very long and tiring day..but was really really fun...too bad ShinYee didn't come with us today...guess will be going again on Wed with Keong and Bernice..

Tired...gonna rest now..let the picture talk....but then i only took a few pics this time..

~luv & hugs~muakss
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