Friday, October 25, 2013

Burning no more

Day by day..
the passion and the flame were slowly disappearing
I know I have to stay strong
I know I have to be positive

I know that there are times that I am at wrong,
but things don't need to be that harsh in a way
Your words don't need to be that harsh
Your ways of treating people doesn't need to be in that way

Being a little bit better to us,
is already like a heaven to us
but everyday we were like living in hell

Asked myself to ignore and stay strong
so that I can still hold on
but sometimes things just goes wrong
and the limit has gone

My Emo time is back..'
trying hard not to let it happen
but it finally struck and went out of control
it's the worst hyper I've got so far

hold on and stay strong

~luv & hugs~muakss
*¦Têññêê a.k.a.*¦¢µ±!e_Gîr£¦* a.k.a §ümlvlèr ¦*

Wednesday, August 14, 2013

Blessed despite it all

My moods very running out of my control lately
Swings of mood has get from bad to worse
And I admit I was kinda upset and emo for the past week
Or shall i say the last post...
I guess even the blind can see it huh?
Well had a long weekend last week..
Family went down to kl and I decided to go to Kampar since I dont need to work this Sunday
He had 2 days break thus headed baxk to hometown in Taiping..
I really dunno how should I react or shall I be eager to meet him on that day or not since I was so emo over the weak..
Things weren't as bad as I thought...
Just us...
While waiting for his mom to be back for dinner..
We were resting and he hugged me to sleep.
Was resting on his chest till I realized my cheeck was wet..
Then i woke up and realized I fell asleep and tears dropped..
He wasnt awakened by that..
Thank god.. and I guess he never knew about what happened...
Went to Kampar on Friday..
As usual.. stayed at his shop to 'help' him out.. lol...
As long as I didnt disturb him.. guess thats the best help from me towards him.. hehe
It's been a month since long distance..
After this trip and we can only meet again in Oct which is 2 months later..
I'm gonna miss you so badly...
Will you feel the same way too?
I'm sorry bii for always troubling you..
Not that i wanted to control nor to checl on you..
I admit..
I was just..
Not that I dont trust you..just that...
The word CONFIDENT never ever exist in my dictionary..
And I know I just need to learn to feel safe.. I love you bii..

Tuesday, August 6, 2013





 ~luv & hugs~muakss
*¦Têññêê a.k.a.*¦¢µ±!e_Gîr£¦* a.k.a §ümlvlèr ¦*

Monday, July 22, 2013


3rd July was my last day at E&O..
yea.. after 8 months in the hotel line I finally decided to move on
but of course.. I do love that industry alot despite all the scoldings I've got from the guests...

5th -8th July,
I went for a trip with my family to Singapore...
my second time being there and it is still so beautiful...

So many thoughts came to me over the trip at SG..
that nothing here we could ever compared...

The trip was fine..
but not as fun if you compared a family trip with a trip with friends..
I didn't play much at USS anyway..
The Q was too long..
We were too huge..
and of course...
I Dint wanna play on a ride alone!!!

So here you are some photos of the trip

~luv &hugs~muakss
*¦Têññêê a.k.a.*¦¢µ±!e_Gîr£¦* a.k.a §ümlvlèr ¦*

Tuesday, July 16, 2013

It's been a long holiday for me..
After my Singapore trip..
now it's the Taiping trip..

It's been 7 months now.. 
and this is the first time for me to visit his hometown officially
staying with his family and all

They are all very nice and lovable person
His mom is just so cute.. 
both of them were just like best friends
always crack a joke on each other..
a happy family I would say and I love them alot.. <3 p="">

So I transformed into a typical tourist in Taiping.
bugged him to bring me around..
Taiping lake, Zoo, Museum.. 

As the happy times flies, 
I was hoping that the clock ticks slower than before
For a moment I just wish that the time could stop
Just for the two of us..

Well, those were some of the photos of us in Taiping and throughout our journey...

there are just so many things in me, 
that I couldn't expresss it out in words...
all the happiness..
and also.. the sad moments..
but who could understand?

He has finally left to Kampar today..
and we're officially a long distance couple now..
a big obstacle for us..
but I will fight for it... 

Love you bii...

~luv &hugs~muakss
*¦Têññêê a.k.a.*¦¢µ±!e_Gîr£¦* a.k.a §ümlvlèr ¦*