Tuesday, January 26, 2010

And it strikes AGAIN

26/01/10 (Tuesday), 2nd week of new sem, and it strikes again. When can I finally get rid of it?It's been 7 years now... I'm getting sicked and tired of it...and it's so troublesome.

Everything was fine the whole day..Joked and laughed as before.. and out of a sudden, I felt it is hard for me to breathe, and I starts to get numb and dizzy

and, it strikes again... same old case... and I was being sent to the Hosp AGAIN...
The doc in there still recognise me... and it's a new A&E ward. I'm like the regular 'customer' there... I meant patient la...was admitted twice last year... but hyperventilate strikes 3 times in that year..It was only my first year...

and now, week 2 of my second year, it strikes again... I dare not imagine, How it gonna be in the future? How if it suddenly strike during my working life?
I am indeed very scared.. How does this suddenlt happen to me?

Well, will need to stop now.. Did a blood test just now..and my hand is still pain..

~luv & hugs~muakss
*¦Têññêê a.k.a.*¦¢µ±!e_Gîr£¦* a.k.a §ümlvlèr ¦*

Thursday, January 21, 2010


It's been quite sometime since i last updated...Sorry for that...Don't have a connection back in my hometown, and life back here in Uni is not that good after all...
It's just the 3rd day and I don't feel good about it...

Time flies...
It's already been a year ever since i came to pursue my study here in UTAR Kampar
I'm now a Year 2 student d..
but I don't feel proud at all..who wanna get old and leave schooling life right?

This sem is really tough...
I'm now kind of like..having.. 'culture' shock..culture shouldn't be the right term but i just don't know which word best describe..
Everything is like happening so fast and rush..
I'm starting to feel the hectic life..

It's just the 3rd day of my new sem..
but I already felt that I can hardly breathe...
I'm like having this trauma or something...
I'm starting to feel the stress in me..
I'm starting to feel the burden on me..
I'm so scared..very very scared..

I can feel that i acted differently lately...
I became very nervous..
Even when I talk to my frind,
I can get excited suddenly...
.I began to talk very fast...
Faster than I used to be..

What is wrong with me?
Can I stay strong till the end of the sem?
Can hyperventilation don't come and visit me this sem?
I doubt so...

~luv & hugs~muakss
*¦Têññêê a.k.a.*¦¢µ±!e_Gîr£¦* a.k.a §ümlvlèr ¦*