And it strikes AGAIN

26/01/10 (Tuesday), 2nd week of new sem, and it strikes again. When can I finally get rid of it?It's been 7 years now... I'm getting sicked and tired of it...and it's so troublesome.

Everything was fine the whole day..Joked and laughed as before.. and out of a sudden, I felt it is hard for me to breathe, and I starts to get numb and dizzy

and, it strikes again... same old case... and I was being sent to the Hosp AGAIN...
The doc in there still recognise me... and it's a new A&E ward. I'm like the regular 'customer' there... I meant patient la...was admitted twice last year... but hyperventilate strikes 3 times in that year..It was only my first year...

and now, week 2 of my second year, it strikes again... I dare not imagine, How it gonna be in the future? How if it suddenly strike during my working life?
I am indeed very scared.. How does this suddenlt happen to me?

Well, will need to stop now.. Did a blood test just now..and my hand is still pain..

v(^_^)v
~luv & hugs~muakss
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y2s1

It's been quite sometime since i last updated...Sorry for that...Don't have a connection back in my hometown, and life back here in Uni is not that good after all...
It's just the 3rd day and I don't feel good about it...

Time flies...
It's already been a year ever since i came to pursue my study here in UTAR Kampar
I'm now a Year 2 student d..
but I don't feel proud at all..who wanna get old and leave schooling life right?

This sem is really tough...
I'm now kind of like..having.. 'culture' shock..culture shouldn't be the right term but i just don't know which word best describe..
Everything is like happening so fast and rush..
I'm starting to feel the hectic life..

It's just the 3rd day of my new sem..
but I already felt that I can hardly breathe...
I'm like having this trauma or something...
I'm starting to feel the stress in me..
I'm starting to feel the burden on me..
I'm so scared..very very scared..

I can feel that i acted differently lately...
I became very nervous..
Even when I talk to my frind,
I can get excited suddenly...
.I began to talk very fast...
Faster than I used to be..

What is wrong with me?
Can I stay strong till the end of the sem?
Can hyperventilation don't come and visit me this sem?
I doubt so...

v(^_^)v
~luv & hugs~muakss
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Magnum countdown concert

Today and tomorrow will be my off day.. today Julio came to Penang to rehearse and prepare for the 2010 countdown concert at Queensbay.

Waited for him to reach Penang..haha...and had fun chatting with him..though it was only a short while but then still had great times...and met Jojo also...she's so pretty in real...heheh

Me and Jojo

Me and Julio

Me and Ju 2




self-shot at coffee bean while waiting for him..

today went to Queensbay and no where else..haha...thnaks to Mei who teman me the whole day..we then sat at coffee bean minum kopi and makan cheese cake..heheh

I guess i missed out lots of post lately..hehe...let me update about what i did during chrismas.. Was off on that day as well..I meant Xmas eve..ehehe... Went to UPR with Mei, Danuas and Parry...oh yEa...not forgottign alvin also..long time buddy..haha...it was so long since we last contact..hahaha...

Me and kor

me n sin pei

ALvin, Parry and I

SinMei, SinPei and Tennee

Sin Mei, me and Alvin

v(^_^)v
~luv & hugs~muakss
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end of 2009

Time flies.. It's now the end of Year 2009. I've gone through many things this year. Experienced many ups and downs together with my buddies in Kampar and also in Penang.
1. First time leaving my home
2. First time go KL by train with Sin Mei
3. First time go Genting staying there with friends
4. First time cycle to uni
5. Get to know lots of new friends.
6. Get to know whom are my real friends
7. Get to know how horrible and scary a human can be
8. First time celebrating my birthday at mamak stall
9. Experienced working as a waitress
10. There's so much more to say...

The times got upside down during our finals, rushing for assignments, enjoying time with friends and all
So fast, it's now been a year. I've been staying in Kampar for a year now le.

Im getting more and more worried le.. My seniors are now going for internship this coming sem..and soon, it'll be my turn. 2 more years to go and I'm done as a STUDENT. Can I take it as what I'm studying now?

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2 days ago, were chatting with a friend. You know who you are. We chatted about a lot of things, and chatted about the histories of us. I'm the one who brought it up.haha.. but anyhow, I need to thank you for giving me the courage to do so. If not because of you, telling me your story, I don't think I would ever dare to talk to you about the topic again.

I have been telling myself since long ago, that I have forgotten about it and have let it down, but then I do doubt that I can do it, or at least I doubt that whether I have successfully let go or not. But after that night, I am very sure that, I have let go. I do not have the burden in me anymore, I meant those things that i do not dare to express I finally did and actually felt relieved. but that doesn't mean that I had forgotten you. I will not and that will be kept in my heart and mind, as a memory. A memory that will never be erased.

I really felt so happy and relieved. and also thanks for giving me the answer that I want to know. Haha.... That's also one of the reason I'm happy le..haha.. after so many years, I finally sure that I had truly let go le..hehe...

It's so nice knowing you and you're right, I am proud to be the one to share your probs..hehe
and about what you told me the other day, jia you ba..hehe..Time will tell, if she's yours, then she is...mayb currently, is just not the right time i guess...ALl the best to you yea..my dear friend..

v(^_^)v
~luv & hugs~muakss
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Those days

There are things in life, that you can never get used to it...

I mean, there are lots of things you can get over it, be it relationship,studies, any problems that you encounter.

But there are certain things in life, that you can never get over it, and get used to it.

It's been 3 years, going to 4 now.

I still cannot believe it

I never thought you would leave us just like that

I just could not wake up to face the reality; the cruel reality

I am still lying to myself that you are still here

I am still wishing and hoping that that day didn't happen

But

My wish will never be granted

Coz I know,

You are no longer here

We cannot spend time with each other how we used to be

Those days where you fed me, and took care of me

Those days where you woke us up early in the morning to bring us go picnic

Those days where you brought me to the middle of the sea and I cried for help

Those days where you taught me how to play guitar

Those days where you played guitar and I sang along

Those days where we make paper cards and fans

Those days where we go hunt for crabs at Queensbay beach with mom

Those days where we went to Bukit Hijau's waterfall, you carried me all the while in the water

Those days where you waited for me everyday at the school's bus stop to pick me up

Those days where you woke up at 5.30 in the morning to accompany me out to the bus stop to wait for bus

Those days where you fetch me for tuition classes

Those days where you nagged me, ask me to study

Those days...

Those were the days..

I Love You...



And I really hope that you will come home..

v(^_^)v
~luv & hugs~muakss
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永远不习惯-

永远不习惯-
人对许多感觉都可以习惯
可以习惯一个人的优点和缺点
可以习惯坚强
甚至失恋也可以习惯
惟独和至亲的人生离死别
是永远无法习惯的

v(^_^)v
~luv & hugs~muakss
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Went to have lunch at East Ocean again...My aunt came to find me this noon and bring me there for lunch. Had a great lunch.. I am sure gonna put on weight from today onwards..

Today had a great lunch, this Sat I will be going back to Penang and for sure will have good meals then..hehe... Sure put on a lot of weight when i Come back to Kampar here..

guys, don't be afraid when u see me yea??hehe..I meant after study break, or even sem break...hehe...

here are the pictures of what I have taken for lunch just now.. My aunt ordered a shark fin for me..heheh.. then steam cord fish, then black pepper deer meet...

1. Crabmeat shark fin
2.Steam Cord Fish
3. Black Pepper deer meat
4. 2 white rice
5. chinese tea

well..just forget about the 4, and 5. the 3 items below, plus rice and tea and all cost RM 52..
the Shark Fin cost RM 15, Fish cost RM 22, erm...pai seh..i din know how much the deer meat cost...probablyu around rm10 like that...less than rm15 if not mistaken..




Till then..

v(^_^)v
~luv & hugs~muakss
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