Friday, December 17, 2010

I'm sorry

As day by day passes by...
I'm getting more and more emo..
more and more worry...

I'm worry about my future...
worry about my result..
and I felt very disappointed in myself...

but.. Who knows how I felt deep inside??
all they can see is I'm playful.. not serious in studies..
but..
can they see when I'm working hard on it??
when I'm struggling??
sigh...

I'm actually very sad right now..
when I think about my result..
When I think about the papers I'm about to take..

and then I start to get frustrated with UTAR..
Why don't they allow us to choose our own minor?
Why must they set everything for us??
Why till my batch only start to have presentations for Intern report + NOT COUNTED in CGPA?
Why FYP also not counted in CGPA anymore??

That's our only hope..
to buck up and get a better grade..
but why UTAR changes its policy just like that and ruined our dream??

I start to hate myself..
hate myself for being such a person..
hate myself for not being smart enough..
hate myself that I've always wanted to show that I can do it..
but everytime I FAILED...

My mom gonna be very sad and disappointed..
.the same goes to my dad..
my sis...
I'm so sorry...





v(^_^)v
~luv & hugs~muakss
*¦Têññêê a.k.a.*¦¢µ±!e_Gîr£¦* a.k.a §ümlvlèr ¦*

Thursday, December 16, 2010

Reminisces...

I tried to upload photos about Chinese Cultural Society where we met Pin Guan..
but then the connection seems to have some problem and I cannot do so...

How's everyone?
It seems very long since I last blogged...
What should I blog about??
hmmm..

Well..
I'm actually having my finals now..
Tomorrow 2.30pm.. my 2nd paper..
but nothing I could study about..
don't know what I can study..
coz it's all based on your creativity...

hmmm...
Was thinking about the past...
was talking with a friend of mine which I called him fei zai...
haha...
a good friend of mine in Uni...
heard great news from him..
Congrats...

and through the conversations...
It brings me back to the past...
Nostalgia.. Reminisces...
and I actually think of YOU....

guess you should know who you are...
Yeah.. It's YOU.. no one else...
don't hesitate yourself..
It's really you...
haha...

Think back about the past..
I was really silly and childish..
where I actually pissed at something which I shouldn't pissed of...
Something that is actually good for you..
Why was I so pissed at that time??

As you've always knew...
you are someone very important...to me..
no matter if it's just a normal friend, or someone whom I once fall for...
There's already a place for you in my heart...
a true great friend of mine..
I actually misses you..
haha...

It's been so long since we last chatted..
How's things going on there??
Is everything fine??
Will you be back for the hols??
maybe we could meet up and tea perhaps?? haha..

Christmas is just round the corner...
May you have a great christmas this year...
as for the unhappy memories that you've got for it..
Hope that it will not affect you anymore...

Hmmm...
Song for today is by Claire Kuo... 总算我们也爱过


从没想过 会再度与你相逢
cong mei xiang guo hui zai du yu ni xiang feng
这段时间 我们改变了什么
zhe duan shi jian wo men gai bian le shen me
为何从来 不觉得你离开过
wei he cong lai bu jue de ni li kai guo
原来我的 爱还没坠落
yuan lai de wo ai hai mei duo luo
如果当时 有什么还没有说
ru guo dang shi you shen me hai mei you shuo
其实我也 早已明白了所有
qi shi wo ye zao yi ming bai le suo you
已错过的 永远美丽而执着
yi cuo guo de yong yuan mei li er zhi zuo


总算我们 也狠狠爱过
zhong suan wo men ye hen hen ai guo
纸飞机 给了我们勇气去作梦
zhi fei ji gei le wo men yong qi qu zuo meng
就算没有一起到最后
jiu suan mei you yi qi dao zui hou
纸飞机 带着我们共同作的梦
zhi fei ji dai zhe wo men gong dong zuo de meng
乘着白云 飞到永恒那个山峰
chen zhe bai yun fei dao yong heng na ge shan feng
如果当时 有什么还没有说
ru guo dang shi you shen me hai mei you shuo
其实我也 早已明白了所有
qi shi wo ye zao yi ming bai le suo you
已错过的 永远美丽而执着
yi cuo guo de yong yuan mei li er zhi zuo

总算我们 也狠狠爱过
zong suan wo men ye hen hen ai guo
纸飞机 给了我们勇气去作梦
zhi fei ji gei le wo men yong qi qu zuo meng
就算没有一起到最后
jiu suan mei you yi qi dao zui hou
纸飞机 带着我们共同作的梦
zhi fei ji dai zhe wo men gong dong zuo de meng
乘着白云 飞到永恒那个山峰
ceng zhe bai yun fei dao yong heng nage shan feng
纸飞机 给了我们勇气去作梦
zhi fei ji gei le wo men yong qi qu zuo meng
就算没有一起到最后
jiu suan mei you yi qi dao zui hou
纸飞机 带着我们共同作的梦
zhi fei ji dai zhe wo men gong tong zuo de meng
乘着白云 飞到永恒那个山峰
ceng zhe bai yun fei dao yong heng na ge shan feng


v(^_^)v
~luv & hugs~muakss
*¦Têññêê a.k.a.*¦¢µ±!e_Gîr£¦* a.k.a §ümlvlèr ¦*