The not-so-great ending of Year 3 Sem 1

Time flies..

It's the end of my year 3 sem 1 in Kampar and will be leaving back to Penang for my internship for 3.5 months

It should be a very exciting journey but then it all ended with frowns

My last paper was on Wednesday,

It was UAMG3004 Media Ethics

all of us were studying very hard for it coz if we don't pass this sem,

we won't be able to graduate next year.

It was finally the day,

but then, a very saddening day..

it was the first time in my life,

where I open up the question paper,

and I don't know what the questions are asking about

It was totally out of common sense

and wasn't really about what we have studied

after all the readings and revisions,

even practices of tutorial questions and past year papers,

it was totally different kind of thing.

what makes things worst is that the next day,

some one leaked out a message saying that failing rate are as to what we had during our Comm Theory paper

of course the 'source' is by the lecturer it self..

but no matter what, *cross fingers*

I hope I'm not the one..

you can say that I'm selfish,

but at this kind of situation,

I believe,

everyone would think the same as well..

after exam,

another thing that I'm sad of..

is that..

I suddenly felt that there are gaps in between us..

I started to feel like,

I couldn't join into the conversation..

felt like I couldn't understand about the conversations

What has actually happen?

Did I think too much?

I actually felt that we are drifting apart..

or was it about the misunderstand?

I felt that there are some misunderstands among us,

as I can felt the ways and talkings, and actions, are different..

and I heard gossips too..

Why are these things all so sudden?

I thought that things have all been settled down after all that we've been through

but why do I suddenly felt so?

I do appreciate us a lot,

I never felt this way before..

and for the first time ever in my life,

tears filled my eyes when I face such situations

Was really happy with what we've shared, and experienced

but, why is it now that i felt I'm the superfluous one?

What wrong have I done?

I've always wanted to confront you,

to clarify things among us

to make things clear so that there will be no misunderstands among us

but,

I'm just too afraid to do so..

I'm afraid of asking

and I'm afraid of the answer as well...

I don't know how should I start to talk to you about this..

but deeply inside,

I really felt the pain and hurt..

coz you are the ones that I treasures the most here..

Guess,

this was the first time that I appreciate our loves so much..

I'm too afraid to loose you..

and I don't want to loose you as well..

hope that it was me who think too much..

I believe,

things will be fine..

sooonnn...

<3 you guys always..

Video for today, a very old song...
Don't Speak from No Doubt..


You and me
We used to be together
Everyday together always
I really feel
That I'm losing my best friend
I can't believe
This could be the end
It looks as though you're letting go
And if it's real
Well I don't want to know

Don't speak
I know just what you're saying
So please stop explaining
Don't tell me cause it hurts
Don't speak
I know what you're thinking
I don't need your reasons
Don't tell me cause it hurts

Our memories
Well, they can be inviting
But some are altogether
Mighty frightening
As we die, both you and I
With my head in my hands
I sit and cry

Don't speak
I know just what you're saying
So please stop explaining
Don't tell me cause it hurts (no, no, no)
Don't speak
I know what you're thinking
I don't need your reasons
Don't tell me cause it hurts

It's all ending
I gotta stop pretending who we are...
You and me I can see us dying...are we?

Don't speak
I know just what you're saying
So please stop explaining
Don't tell me cause it hurts (no, no, no)
Don't speak
I know what you're thinking
I don't need your reasons
Don't tell me cause it hurts
Don't tell me cause it hurts!
I know what you're saying
So please stop explaining

Don't speak,
don't speak,
don't speak,
oh I know what you're thinking
And I don't need your reasons
I know you're good,
I know you're good,
I know you're real good
Oh, la la la la la la La la la la la la
Don't, Don't, uh-huh Hush, hush darlin'
Hush, hush darlin' Hush, hush
don't tell me tell me cause it hurts
Hush, hush darlin' Hush, hush darlin'
Hush, hush don't tell me tell me cause it hurts

v(^_^)v

~luv & hugs~muakss

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