nice food

wow...I've been eating lot's of nice food lately..for the whole week I suppose...haah..
Let's see..
MON-went to Ipoh with Sampat gang, had McD for my brunch and er... beansprout chicken for dinner.
love this shop-taken at guardian

TUES- er..had my hokkien mee imported from Penang for lunch, and dinner was at Ipoh's Pasar malam, with Alex, Darren, Jason, and gf-Huey Chyi, sorry dont know how to spell her name...ehhe..then night yam cha
WED- forgot what i had for lunch d...hehe..Dinner at Yau Kee, ate curry chicken bread, is that what you called?hehe..with the 4 of them again, plus Huang Yi Da this time..


hehe..then pasar malam at Kampar..haha..then night yam cha again..this was taken near the ktar flats when we teman ai tein n ying ling walk home..


THURS- didn't have dinner as i was working, pity huh?haha, but the meals ai had for the past few days is enough to make me put on weight..Night yam cha again...
FRI- went to A box with the 4 of them again.. but wasn't in mood, and I know i've been singing real bad this time..haha... Had Pasta for dinner at Alex, and Darren's house.. Jason cooked..and it was nice, but heard that the previous time was better..not too sure coz i only taste it for the first time..haha

my portion..


yea...that was my whole week's schedule?hahah..interesting yea?sigh, I'm so broke this week..spent a lot...hahah... and ate over quota d...need to go for diet le..hehe

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I am currently craving for this song called 红豆 by Faye Wong.
Well, it is a very old song.. but then it is just so nice to hear.

My moods are still unstable.
SOmetimes i think what can I do to make myself better?
Go punch the wall?my bones on my right hand are already kind of crushed as i used to do that when I was young.
I still remember one of the most stupid things I've ever done, which is to cut my hand.
but frankly speaking, I do feel better.
I used to think, why do these peoples hurt themselves?
I was once curious and I tried.
THe most ever stupid thing that I have ever done, but I end up understand that it somehow brings you a kind of relieve..
You might think that I am abnormal, but it somehow made me feel relieve, which I do not know why.
Well, I am not trying to suicide, don't worry.
It's just a way of relieving I suppose?haha
I used to promised a person that I will never do that anymore, as now, my hands are full of vains, it somehow happens after I started cutting myself often.
Am I nuts?for doing such a thing?
Those were the days
I really felt so lost out of a sudden.
But I just couldn't show it out to them.
I just hope I can be as happy as I am when Im out with my friends and cried myself to sleep or release when I am alone in my room.

Anyhow, enjoy the song below..and I hope I can find and see Rainbow soon.No more darken days for me.


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Lost

Another day has gone... and my mood are getting more and more unstable lately..
What has happen to me?
I can be smiling and joking at this minute, and the next minute, my mood will be 180degrees changed...
What had happened? WHy do I keep on having mood swing lately?
I just felt very tired...very veyr tired.
I really do not know why..
That kind of emo feelings that i had experienced last sem came back again. And frankly speaking,
I am very scared.
I don't know what I'm scared of..but I just have this feeling in me..
I still remember last sem, there's these days, that I didn't turn up for class the whole week.
I cried for 3 days continuously for no specific reason.
I just feel very sad and don't feel like talking.
I feel very lost. Lost of directions, do not know what I'm doing and thinking.


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Ipoh trip with SIAO n SAMPAT gang

Went back to Penang for the past weekend...was kind of rush this trip...went back on Sat evening, reached Pg at 7pm, then came back to Kampar today at 8am...

Reached Kampar at 11 then went to meet up with Alex, Alvin, Prince, Kuang Sze, Syee Nee and Sze Chin they all at westlake, then depart to Ipoh's Jusco... went to watched 2012 and yea..it was good..haha..and I cried so badly...haha..who told me will cry wan ah??hahah

Then after that went to Ipoh Parade...spent over a 100 today...bought 2 clothes, a scarf, and a bag..hehe.... then went to eat MCD and also dinner at Lou Wong's place again...

Had a very long and tiring day..but was really really fun...too bad ShinYee didn't come with us today...guess will be going again on Wed with Keong and Bernice..

Tired...gonna rest now..let the picture talk....but then i only took a few pics this time..











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Reminisces, Nostalgic

I'm finally going home for the first time this sem..Time was actually very free and I thought that I would go back home often but I realized I was wrong.

I was so lazy to drive alone for the 2 hours... and petrol and toll is not cheap by the way..haha..

Tomorrow I'll be having my French Quiz and also dictation test that will cost me 15% o fmy finals.sigh. Ya.I still haven't get serious in my studies yet. Well, it's only about pass or fail.. these makes me even more lazier than ever..

Wanted to watch 2012 and thought that maybe could watch it when I'm going back tomorrow, but mana tau, most of them already watched it. Kenny said he watched d.. Parry also said watched d..sien..guess end up I can only come back to Kampar and watch at Ipoh with my friends..

Visited 2 of my friend's blog just now. Seeing her post, about her wishlists for her 21st birthday next Sunday, the 29th, reminded me about my 21st birthday. Ya, birthday doesn't mean anything, it's just the day that remind you, you're actually 1 year older. but to me, birthday meant a lot of things. And I really hope to have a meanignful and unforgettable birthday. but I was disappointed every year.

Since I was in high school, we just can't wait to be 21. And at times, we even planned about how we wanted to celebrate our 21st birthday. but my 21st birthday is stranded here in Kampar, without my lovely family, and close friends that are in Penang. Yea, my friends, coursemates, did celebrate with me, at mamak.. I still thank them for their efforts, but I really do wish to have it in Penang, at least, with my family. I miss them so so so much.

After her blog, I read about another friend's blog, which also make me realize that time flies really really fast. Faster that you could ever imagine. Think back about the past, it was just like what had happen yesterday, but the truth its, it's already been 3 yrs now. I still remember the times when you're worrying about Uni stuffs, then got the offer letter, then packing and getting ready to leave. and of course..the memories.

I kind of miss those times at times.. It's been 3 yrs going to be 4 yrs now.. you're graduating very very soon.. it's been years now.

I don't mean anything for this post..haha..and i've already let go and moved on with my life.don't worry.haha. Just feel that time..flies..scary..I'm almost done with my 1st year in UNi.. still remember when I was struggling and worrying about my Uni stuffs, worried of not getting any uni...then happy to get the offer letter..then the financial prob..then start to pack..

and now, I'm already here for a year...Daddy, you've left me for 3 years now.... I'm missing you so much... I will stay strong..I will work hard and strive hard for my future, and I will, take good care of mom. Je t'aime.

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Voice of Utar @nd musical gathering

A new semester..A new gathering. The 2nd Voice of UTAR is here again... it was great..but anyhow, I still prefer the first session that was held last sem. There's new singers this time...and all were great..hehe

Well, it's been a very tiring day for me Yesterday. Woke up at 7 coz I have a mid term at 8am. Then went back home rest awhile at 9-11.. then went back to uni to meet up with Lance.

Had lunch at campus's cafeteria while waiting for the clock to strikes at 2. which is the time for the Voice of Utar..




There are more pictures to go..but then it's in my friend's handphone..will get it from him and then upload it...

It ends at roughly aroudn 4...was kinda rush this time as there's a class at 4pm which is waiting outside for us to leave the room..haha...

Worked at 7pm till 1am last night..was almost full shift d.. working non stop...guess it was the busiest night i've ever had ever since i started working...


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Weekend in Ipoh

Last Saturday, after French lecture class, I went to Ipoh to my grandma's house to celebrate her birthday together with my mom and relatives.

It was kind of scary during my journey to Ipoh. Many things happen in Kampar lately. It wasa raining cats and dogs and were very windy that day. The lightning waas just right in front of me. It was really scary especially with extreme loud thunders and for those of you who know me well, you should know that I am indeed very afraid of thunders.

It's been a week since I've started working now. Things were getting better, though i sometimes do make some mistakes. But everyone there treated me well. I guess I'm gonna put on weight if I were to work here for a long time.Haha..

Next week is the dead line for my Moral assignment. It s really damn hard because it's been years since I last speak or write in BM. Luckily there's no presentation for Moral this time haha...

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Because You Loved Me

Was studying halfway and I planned to blogged about this... Well, I've watched this video few days back and wanted to blog about it but end up I forgotten.

This little girl called Charice, she is just 16 years old and she has got a very awesome and powerful voice. i was kind of shock when i first heard her sang. Celine Dion sang the frist line and Charice sang the rest of the song with Celine Dion encouraging her.

They chose the song Because You Loved Me because Charice wanted to sing for her mother. Do pay attention to her when she sang at high pitch. So stable, that not every one could have done that..

And I would like to take this opportunity to tell my mom..

Mummy, I LOVE YOU so SO so MUCHHHHhhiiiee....
I'm everything I am BECAUSE YOU LOVED ME..

Thanks for everything mom...



For all those times you stood by me
For all the truth that you made me see
For all the joy you brought to my life
For all the wrong that you made right
For every dream you made come true
For all the love I found in you
I'll be forever thankful baby
You're the one who held me up
Never let me fall
You're the one who saw me through through it all


You were my strength when I was weak
You were my voice when I couldn't speak
You were my eyes when I couldn't see
You saw the best there was in me
Lifted me up when I couldn't reach
You gave me faith 'coz you believed
I'm everything I am
Because you loved me


You gave me wings and made me fly
You touched my hand I could touch the sky
I lost my faith, you gave it back to me
You said no star was out of reach
You stood by me and I stood tall
I had your love I had it all
I'm grateful for each day you gave me
Maybe I don't know that much
But I know this much is true
I was blessed because I was loved by you


You were my strength when I was weak
You were my voice when I couldn't speak
You were my eyes when I couldn't see
You saw the best there was in me
Lifted me up when I couldn't reach
You gave me faith 'coz you believed
I'm everything I am
Because you loved me


You were always there for me
The tender wind that carried me
A light in the dark shining your love into my life
You've been my inspiration
Through the lies you were the truth
My world is a better place because of you


You were my strength when I was weak
You were my voice when I couldn't speak
You were my eyes when I couldn't see
You saw the best there was in me
Lifted me up when I couldn't reach
You gave me faith 'coz you believed
I'm everything I am
Because you loved me


I'm everything I am
Because you loved me

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appeal result will be out soon

Today, is the day, that the appeal result will be released. Sigh, I'm actually very scared and nervous and also worry. I'm really worried if we got bad news. sigh... and sometimes, I think, what if I appeal, What will iget to know tomorrow? Maintain, a hope, or a disappointment? I don't know, but since I did not appeal, I suppose, I shouldn't think of it d.. or else, it might make me feel even more sad.

Well, May god bless my frends who are going to get their appeal result tomorrow. Hope everything will be fine... To my frens in SIAO gang, or sampat gang, you guys know who I', talking about... Wish you guys all the best k? Hope everything will be fine...will wait for good news

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Tiring Weekend

It's been a tiring weekend for me. Yesterday was Alvin's BBQ function. Don't know whether it's he lucky or unlucky..hehe.. it was raining at 8 pm.. therefore, the BBQ changed from basketball court to his house.

Not many ppl came because it was raining at first, but then it stopped in the end. Haha... didn't eat much... just few slices of chicken and also few sotong balls. ahah... went to MM2 to join alex, kuang sze and prince they all. They were watching football but so sad that Liverpool lost. They're liverpool fans..haha... after that we went back to Alvin's place. to continue BBq.

Alvin went to watch MU's match not long after we were back at her place, we hten help him to clean up... after everything settle, it was already 3.30 am..went back home, bath then sleep le.

Was working today from 7-12. But then not much ppl, therefroe, Mimie let me off at 11.30. then had my staff food, ate seafood cabonara.. damn fat la...eat it at late night..haha..the food there is really nice...can give it a try. the price is not expensive also.

It was raining heavily. was kind of free at first, but suddenly a lot of people came. All also in a big group. I made a few mistakes today...sigh..don't know what happen to me. Made wrong order..sigh. I repeated the order and they said yea...mana tau end up made mistakes. then after that, i send the food to the wrong table..sigh..what happen to me la....

Just now got to know a bad news. 3 Utar students drowned at the Kampar waterfall.Sigh, now raining seasons, why la go waterfall, Pity them. God bless them la...

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